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We believe in a lot of things indeed and sometimes they change depending on the istuation we are put in or at times witness….Till now I had the idea that love was a waste of time…but I admit I was wrong.If indeed it was baseless then authors would not write novels on it,poets write poems or movie producers create movies on it!Indeed it does exist these days but perhaps the way it is thrown around these days turn out to disappoint me or my inability to find it…I am not sure!I mean apart from my personal experience,these days it has turned out to be a play where-at times-the boy,the girl or both- are both shrewd actors!We say those three words because we never understand the meaning of the word love.

Love is a soldier thinking about his wife,children and mother while he risks his life on the battlefield.

Love is a brother trying to teach his younger brother how to walk.

Love is a boy waiting for his father to come back home and play with him.

Love is all around us,and it is not!You think I am contradicting myself right now don’t you?Don’t be fooled!I merely emphasise the fact that even though there being love around us a lot of us don’t really stick by it…

If you love someone,ask yourself a few questions…

Do you think about them more than anybody else?

Do they think of you more than anybody else?

Do you merely like the way they look?Then it isn’t love!

Do you feel angry at them if they make you wait?Nope not love

If they reject you you feel your heart break into pieces?

You spend sleepless nights thinking what they are doing?

Indeed some of us are deep thinkers and think about the ones we love a lot more than we even think about ourselves…not forgetting also that some of us merely shallow and tend to judge the beauty of a person by the mere outward appearance.

We need to show people that we care because we might not have the second chance to do so.Think about the people who have died in the 9/11 incident.If you watched the World Trade Center movie you will get a more in depth idea of what I am talking about….

So convey the message that you love someone-be it your brother,father,grandfather,girlfriend or even your teacher!

Well yesterday i was tired like crazy hehe!Parents took me to these shrines and well on the way met 2 old folks’ 1 of whom was an old lady and the other an old man.The old lady smiled and greeted me and so did I and when she was leaving she shook my hand(not my parents’ but mine alone!)and my dad said maybe she has a grandson like you whom she misses and that being the reason she saw her grandson in you.The whole incident was truly heartwarming…but when we were returning I sat next to an old person who was sleeping so when I turned up my i pod volume he told me to turn it down hehe!lol O and I also saw a lil girl who looked like bebee’s little sister awww!

Well its strange how the past few days have whizzed on past!A quotation from tokyo drfit really touched my soul…it goes-

"Life is simple.You take a decision and don’t look back."(Sounds almost like sumthyn Andrew 1ce told me!)

Awesome.Anyway the thing with Reimi is that even though we are friends,she really makes me feel stuff that I never felt before….but to be truthful,I have no intentions of forcing her into a relationship!Friends are fine.Lol "Move on like Ross and Rachel"as Stanley would say hahaha!I mean check out a perfect relationship (for now) like Nabil and Hannah.Wow both care so much for each other…O well…I may not have a relationship but guess what?I have friends!haha how lame was that?lol!

Hahaha I would say somewhere from above the big kahuna(God)is trying to send me a message.My guesses:

1.Roy you fuckin bastard….turn gay asshole!

2.Roy you fuckin loser you’re not gonna get any gals and die a virgin idiot so stop tryin and get a job!

haha just kiddin!yep u guessed it she said no and strangely no she didnt hav a boyfriend she didn’t want to ruin what we had…aww how sweet.Well thanx 2 all who helped support me tell her.Afiq,Fatin,Chloe,Stan,Bebee and also Chin chen fei!neways wassup wif ur lives?Im guessin every1 is so bz 2 even drop me a comment hehe!^_^ anyway goin 2 India end of dis month!Smell ya l8r!

Crap I got like 3 E mails In my Inbox but I can’t open them…makes me go grr!  hehe anyway i thought id add some good all time quotations 2 ma blog…dun worry u will like ‘em…I think…

"It’s up to you!"-Stanley Chow

"Roy we like the way you dressed,"Nur Amalina Nadzilla and Sara Ali Khan.(1st time I tried Long sleeved T shirts wif a small shirt on top) and 5 minutes later…"Roy we don’t like the way you dress!"(ROFL)

"Happy Hormones"-Yumni Kim Bte Asman

"I think yumni looks pretty,"-me during an internet conversation to which Shaon Deb replies,"Dude are you on drugs or something?" (ROFL again)

"What are you two doing?"(Mrs Mohan to Yong Khee HEung and Andrew Phan who at the time were supposed to be fighting but seemed like Yong was hugging andrew from the back)"Hormones teacher,"I reply."Which ones?Oestrogen or progestron?"(haha)

"Study today you have the exams tomorrow!"Mrs Mohan."Cannot ‘cher,"Russel."Why not?"Mrs Mohan."Need to go home and eat then watch Tv then sleep,"Russel

"Roy your curry is here,"someone or the other during practicals in Form 5.

"I have a stalker,"Bebee Benanzir,Internet Conversation."Here’s waht we’ll do.We’ll cut your hair and make you bald then shave your eyelashes and make you wear spectacles that make u look unattractive!Am I a genius or what?"Me."Totally,"Bebee.(Hahahaha)

"What is the vector of a shear hakem?"Mr Mohan.(correct answer was k 0 0 1 but Afizul Hakem replied "It’s k k k k"

"Budeinheiggein,"Vincent James Rodriguez (while sneezing)

"Jeina,Jeina Proudmore.Where has he taken the fleet where girl?where?"Dennis Ting Teck Wah (first time he did this to me shaking me i was like wat the hell is he doing but then wen i played warcraft dawn of realization!haha)

"Hadhi give me pepsi I’m very thirsty,"Desmond screaming to hadhi a boy from our class in form 4!haha

"Wat ees a kingfisher?eeeet eees a berd!"Mrs Samuel.

"Are you following me?"Mrs Samuel again.

"Terrence could I borrow an eraser?"I asked Terrence Roy a dude who used to come to tuition with my mom."Eh buy wah,"Terrence’s reply!

"Shorty,"me to muhammad afiq."Bearded lady,"afiq to me.(haha)

"I have a stalker…it’s so freaky!"Nur amalina nadilla."Lucky you,"me haha!

haha hope you liked them cuz i know i did

Wow yumni is seriously busy today furthermore i learnt that my old time friend rafee now knows yumni and dennis!cool!Also a may whom i may hav come accross in pds…nt sure!neways lets see…um 2day i thought about it  a lot and perhaps it is best not to tell the girl i have feelings for her that I personally feel that way about her more than a friend.I mean seriously…when taken into consideration Net said yes under pressure so thats counted as a half…half out of four isnt a very good figure(excluding zila and yumni i mean they were merely small crushes.)Hehe damn I hate adolescence!lol!

I know I may be taking a huge risk but cmon!

-I may never see her again

-she is probably do her SAT and go 2 america or canada!

-Long distances never work out

-She is 3 years younger than me

-She probably just thinks I am funny and doesnt see me more than a friend!

Sigh Really wish I could tell her though…sigh!

Hey there.I’m Roy.Wish I could say that I was raised in metropolis and grew up having super strength,the ability to fly and heat vision but sorry…Clarke Kent is so not me.Anyway for those of you who have no idea who I am…well…I’m your average(well more or less)teenager livin life and trying to cope with life,friends,family and studies!You know the drill right?I guess this is the second blog I will be having.In my old blog I used to be a "professor" who gave people advices on relationships,but trust me when it comes to these things I am truly clueless.I mean its harder to explain but over the past few years I found out that being in love is either for people who have a daredevil gung ho attitude or for someone who are really young.Anyway I found out that friendship is a better thing than love.No I am not saying that because after every rejection the rejector tells the rejected-"I’m sorry but I hope we can still be friends,"but also I had friends who not only surprised me by givin me a surprise birthday cake,support me when i tried askin a girl 2 a movie and sittin next 2 each other but they gave me a lot of support which I know even if I tried I could’nt convey within words!

Let’s move on…this relationship thing is a really sensitive issue…I love listening to music.Bowling for soup,nickelback,the calling are my favourite guy singers/bands and Avril,kelly clarkson and hillary duff for girl bands.In general at any rate.I mean I like other songs too but cmon,if I like one song from a ban is it worth mentioning I like that band?

I am an Indian for those of you who don’t know.I spent 6 years in Brunei and the last 3 years in St. Margaret’s was the best.You’re probably wondering "What does this have to do with him being an Indian?" I’m getting there.You see every afternoon I had to stay back and my father would drive me like this tiffin case of rice,vegetables,curry and salad,and man they used to laugh their hineys off.I mean questions like,"Why don’t you just cook it in a bowl and ask your mother to give a little each day?" or "Do Indians sweat out curry?" came my way.Ok laughed at the first one but the second one was a little raceist.Anyway it was all in good fun.

I love singing.I mean yes,I know I may not be the greatest singer…heck I only sing in my shower…but in St.Margaret’s they had this singing competition that I signed up for but eventually it got cancelled.At that time I was sad…but now watching the singers in American Idol get such a hard time maybe that was for the best.

Well currently I am in Japan and have been here since like December.I’m supposed to leave to India and start schools there.It’s weird in just a couple of days after the O level moments all the friends I had are spread all over the world like pieces of the brownish red leaves you see during winter that are usually scattered by the wind.

I really miss those friends.They really meant a lot to me and they still do.I know it will not in any way help me by mourning for them but I truly miss them.When I sleep sometimes I dream of them.As if we were together again.Alas if only that was reality.But dreams never last.Sooner or later we have to open our eyes.

Anyway I’m sure I have taken enough of your precious time for the moment.I shall try doing my best to keep writing in this blog but no promises because when I get to India I have a feeling I won’t be able to go online as such but I will try my best.

And that’s how it all begins…

Umm well my favourite colour is a tie between red and black,I am a sentimental fool who likes to write poems and even at a time songs,love to meet people who aren’t snobs or backstabbers and thinking of a girl whom I wanna say those three words to but can’t taken into consideration my history and a few more complications.

That’s more than enough for a new post.