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as much as it hurts…truth is reimi never loved me wow once again hurt in love…..hmm ok im stayin single forever woooo!!!!

I need you like the air I breathe

Like the clothes I wear or the nutrients on which I feed

Your thoughts keep me awake for days but mostly nights

From the dark dusk to the morning that’s bright

Thinking about you gets me high

But no matter how hard I try

I can’t describe my feelings in words like this

Of how much my heart tends to miss

A moment close to you or a memory at least

That would’ve awoken my hidden beast

Acknowledge this love for I love no one but you

And deep in your heart you know that it’s true

Despite the distance and borders holding us apart

I promise you’ll be the only one in my heart

here are two poems i wrote for…sum1…

the 1st 1:

With breathtaking beauty and a smile divine

I’d do anything to make you mine

Perhaps it is one sided but not invain

For in love there is no loss,neither is there gain

It hurts so much as if my heart would bleed

Yet it is the only thing that I oh so need

Sacrificing so much for a doubtful cause

After every breath I take,remains a silent pause

My heart beats for no one but only for you

I know that this love in my heart is very much true

No cloud could darken my day if I saw your face

Smile at me,wink at me,make my heart race

I’d want us to be together but you just want to be friends

Does that mean that these feelings have to end

I’m walking on a river with doubts swirling on my mind

All the while your love is getting really hard to find

But I have faith someday I’ll make you mine

With breathtaking beauty and a smile oh so fine.

life in india has started 2 become hectic loads of tuitions b4 school started and even the studies…phew no time 4 me 2 even breathe!on the plus side…i get 2 see ma gramps relatives and stuff….and i reli miss reimi!Stan as well and all ma fewns back in brunei!

back in india…wat 2 write?parents leavin next week tuitions started though studies havent evens tarted  this 1 is seriously a huge hassle on ma mind…but i havta face it….but studies here seem seriously tuff….umm bein wif ma cuzin and uncles and aunts r cool and gramps as well but ill miss reimi i oredi do haha!:Pstanley osos lol…dats it 4 now haha

This will probably be my last post before leaving for India!Well Japan was great!Awesome!Cooler was meeting and falling for a gal who actually fell in luv wif me 2!That was frickin awesome!But alas destiny is mean and cruel 2 me and decides 2 separate us but no matter I shall take this as a sign that God wishes 2 test us."When we are in love,we learn to appreciate everything in life"-yours truly hehe!:PAnyway had a lengthy decent chat wif stan 2day n he almost(ALMOST!)made me cry hehe!:PAnd fatin gave me an emoticon i could use….a teddy wif those 3 words hehe!And I really really feel bad about leavin cuz of Reimi….damn!But I dunno if I told any1 except Fatin but truth be told…everyday before I go to sleep I pray 2 God that she stays safe,well and in good health.:)I love ya reimi!Hope ya love me 2!

So days have passed and the boy gave up hope

But he still loved her still

One day the girl told him he had a scop

Cuz she loved him :so chill.

He couldnt believe it but it was all true

She said those 3 words he wanted 2 hear

"…I love you"

There was nothing he feared.

He loved her now and she loved him too

Only distance kept them apart

But if their love is true

Someday they will meet it’s in their hearts!

hmmm many serious posts hav ebeen written so now its time to try out a one that is a little casual!Anything taken too much is a bad thing!

Let’s see now,

My greatest console bought: PS2

My greatest accomplishment: composing own music lol never imagined I would be able to do that!Still don’t believe it haha!

My most embarassing moment: Hmm many….

My most deepest darkest secrets: Have got a few.Let’s see 1ce wen i was like 8 i had a weird urge to play with barbies and until recently i had been sleeping in my undies!hehe

My saddest day:Also a lot….umm the day when my father (accidentally) threw my i pod on the floor and shouted at me!hehe

My pet:haven’t had 1 yet

My most enjoyable(childhood)memory: many again lol….umm i was weird hyperactive and even rude as a child….hehe.Umm The time my dad came back from brunei I guess….I hugged him and cried I was never that happy….I mean the happy plus crying thing….

My most regrettable (childhood)incident:The day when dad was coming to Brunei.I was so angry and sad I burried my face deep in the pillows and didn’t even look up!hehe my dad left me like 2 or 3 archies under the pillow but in the morning i really missed him

My dream-come-true moment:Haha a stupid 1!My last (day before my)birthday I wished that Bebee was in brunei and she magically appeared lol!Wat an insane wish as I think now lol!

My scariest moment:Many…hehe umm…No matter what happens I see my friends always helping me out wif ma troubles and fears!

Lies:Very seldom but yes!Hey I’m not perfect!

Smiles:Very rare usually while chatting or watching a movie!

Getting Angry:Sometimes but doesn’t last long!

Getting Inspired:Really easily hehehe!It’s kind of impressive(not meaning to brag here)but sometimes I astound myself!

Stopped wetting bed:Long time back when I was what….5 or 4 years!haha remember one morning woke up and ma legs were all numb I was so scared but then dad explained it was just a cramp!

Can’t believe:Lots of things!Like how amrita didi knew all those things when she met me…and other stuff!

Can’t stop thinking about:hmm…..music?:P

What’s going on in the world today?

Nobody even cares to stay

And look around and see what’s wrong

Everybody is so busy they move along.

But we have some serious problems

We should sit and think how to solve them

So instead of saying,"I told you so"

I think I’ll say,"The world needs to know"!

Global warming due to cutting down forests

Are we even sure what we are doing’s for the best?

Poachers catching animals and hunters hunting endangered species

This is the truth,it’s not a hypothesis.

World trade center and tsunami disasters

We have to make our minds think faster

How can we stop the wrong activity

How can we spread generousity?

You have to earn to get your own bread

The beggars who can’t may wind up dead

Another scenario;a different one

Students of school carrying guns!

Prostitution and AIDS is up high

But all I can do is watch and sigh

Lives keep going in front of my eyes

Would it be different if we all tried?

Wouldnt it be different if we spread love?

Thought of God who sits there above

He sees us through destruction and cries and weeps

He cannot rest;He cannot sleep

He sees us in darkness and wants to lead us to light

He knows we can differentiate wrong from right!

So lets stop parents fighting like we’re in a battlefield

They’re like knights using their swords and shields

And stop little children from cutting their wrists

Piercing their tongues,bellies or tits!

Prevent child prostitution or child pregnancy

Don’t be in confusion be who you want to be

No more child slavery or working like animals

We’re all humans not some cannibals

So that next time we see all u sisters and bros

The world and all of us will already know!

CNN and BBC will show the war ending

Throughout this all it’s love that I’m sending

Stop the madness and stop the killing

There is no goal we’re fulfilling!

Worship God,be kind and true

You’ll save the world and the world will thank you!

Is this all too much to ask?

Or maybe one impossible task?

Not if we all work together in co operation and harmony

We’ll all be safe,happy and even free!

All the pain will stop and everyone will show

This is something that the world needs to know!

A boy met a girl in the ordinary way

And they smiled and were good friends

But this is where the story begins I say

Not where it ends.

Even though he met her just two times as such

He just couldn’t stop thinking about her

Maybe he loved her very much

And everything else was nothing but a blurr.

He took a little time and got things straight

He thought what he had to do

He decided to leave it all on fate

And confess the feelings he had so true.

"You are too sweet and really kind

And a personality that I adore

I can’t get you out off my mind

One look and I’ll be flat on the floor!"

The girl considered and gave a sigh

She didn’t feel the same way

The boy wondered why

And maybe he wonders to this very day.

"I want to be friends with you forever

I am not mature enough

Please hate me never

I know it is tough."

She apologized so many times

His feeling for her grew deep and strong

Did he commit  a crime?

He even wrote her a song.

He thought about her all night

He thought about her wherever he would go

Thinking about her felt so right

But he had to take it slow.

He didn’t want to freak her out

But he couldn’t tell her either

Maybe she would scream or shout

Or maybe she would need a breather.

So he never told her what he felt again

And wondered if she would feel the same way about him

Because sooner or later he could conquer the pain

But he did not want her future to be grim.

So he bottled it all up and kept it inside

And wrote it down with a heavy heart

He never smiled nor cried

But was sad that they had to stay apart.